I just know I need to break that cycle.

My story isn’t much different from yours, I’m a 32-year-old mother of one.I was the only child of a quick and volatile Marriage. After my parents separated and my mother returned to her home town. She quickly found a job in a local pub and worked while I started school, I saw my dad most…

My addiction experiment.

We all have this idea of exactly how addiction works. You do something too much and your body gets physically addicted and then it becomes difficult to stop. But addiction is way more than that. Of course there is the physical element, but I totally believe that it’s about one’s state of mind. I believe…

Losing my father, for the second time.

In April of this year, we lost our father in rather tragic circumstances. How a man goes from a 6’3 rugby playing, business owner, with 4 beautiful children and a loving wife, to an almost homeless alcoholic taking his last breath on the floor of a hostel is a question I will ask myself for…

Mother..

Things got really bad when I was 14. My parents had always been drinkers, but my mums drinking started getting out of control. She would turn violent, her anger and bitterness directed at my dad, my little sister and me. The police would be called at least once a week.  She stopped taking my sister…

Turn Loneliness into Learning

For those that have experienced loneliness you will know how upsetting it can be. I have had periods of loneliness throughout my life and thankfully now I experience this very rarely. My home was often full of people, if it wasn’t the family it was foreign students or friends of my mums so generally a…

How I see change for children of alcoholics!

In light of the amazing Liam Byrne’s campaign for change, and more help for children of alcoholics, I thought I’d  outlay some of my thoughts. Firstly it was a great turn out at the all-party parliamentary group meeting on the 15th September, and great to hear some passionate input from a host of different people,…

Getting less anxious… About our anxiety!

Anxiety is something nearly every child of an alcoholic I have ever spoken to has had experience with in some form or another. So what is anxiety? A quick Google search and here’s the definition that comes up at the top- anxiety aŋˈzʌɪəti/ noun 1. a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease about something with…

Don’t think yourself to death… Talk yourself to life!!

In light of the suicide prevention day on the 10th September I wanted to take a bit of time to share about the importance of talking. Let’s get one thing straight right off the bat… If you’re worried you are crazy, then I can tell you that YOU ARE NOT, crazy people have no idea they are…

Why I chose alcohol over my kids… every time!!

Trying to describe exactly what my children mean to me now is difficult, words never seem to adequately explain just how they make me feel. They are my 5 greatest teachers, we learn about the world, and together we grow. But it hasn’t always been like that, there was a point in my life where,…