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“You carry too much shit from the past..”

-But I was brave.

When you beat the shit into me on a daily basis. – I was brave.

How you’d make me flinch then back hand me in the mouth for flinching? – I was brave.

How I was so fucking terrified of you,I couldn’t even tell u the times I was sexually assaulted during my teens. – I was brave.

Remember the times I’d be beat down all the way to the floor and you would still punch,kick & stamp on me until you was out of breath? – I was brave.

Or the times you would rip my hair from my scalp,and I’d whince from the painful lumps when brushing my hair. – I was brave.

Or the times you’d hold my throat so hard for so long I actually believed I was going to die,sometimes I wish you’d just do it already, why is she dragging this out? Just kill me already, get it over with! – I was brave.

Did your actions empower you?
It worked! I was pretty fucking scared of you as a child – But now, now I’m brave.

You lost a daughter through no fault of your own, you beat every ounce of confidence out of me and My sister, she’s washed her hands of you – she was brave.

So yes mum, I carry too much shit of the past around & it’s fucking heavy – But I AM brave!